Loving yourself and having self confidence are really important to me. During my middle school years and couple of years of high school I had trouble loving myself and self confidence. I got bullied really bad during that time so I started to believe what everyone was saying about me. I was called gorilla, ape, fat nose, fat ass, and shit I even got picked on for having a big butt. The kids at school would bully me about the way I walk because I’m peigion toed. I would try not to let all of those things bother me but I’m gonna honest it did. I remember every time I would get home I would lock myself in the room and cry. I use to just make up all kinds of excuses some days just not to go to school and I even would pray to just have a really good day. I started to let myself go. I just didn’t care what I looked like, what I wore or anything. I was basically depressed and I just had to figure some way to get out of it.
During my 9th grade I started to get tired of going through the same BS over and over and I wanted to fix it. I started to taking up for myself and it worked tbh! The bullying wasn’t so bad anymore and I was okay a little. I wasn’t as happy but okay. Then during the summer I was getting ready to go to the tenth grade I moved schools. It wasn’t because I was bullied it was a personal family problem. I have to say that was actually the best move for my life.
My tenth grade year I really found myself. I was so happy during this time. I started loving myself, caring for myself, and having high self esteem. I made friends at the new school I went to and people were just friendly. I could dress the way I want without getting judge, style my hair the way I wanted too. I would even look at myself in the mirror and say positive things like:”You’re beautiful”, “you’re a strong woman, don’t let anyone test you down”. I started even smiling! I remember I use to just have this anger mean look and never smile. I felt good about my size too! Being a plus size girl, I feel like you get made fun of the most. But I love my shape and idgaf what people even think. Like if you wanna rock a certain piece of clothing, then do it! I love my big thighs,stomach,legs,nose,arms, and most of all my ass! 😂 Like who cares! Just be yourself and do you! But when you have positive people around you, you feel so much better about yourself and positive quotes and doing what you love help you too.
Loving yourself and self confidence are what define you in my opinion. No man or woman will love you unless you love yourself. Focus on you and do what you love in life. Never let anyone tear you and what you love to do down. But the most important thing is you cannot give a f@$k. What I mean by that is you can’t let anything or anyone get to you in a negative way. That’s one of the things I live by believe it or not! If you have anything negative or someone that’s negative in your life cut it or them out of it! You’ll feel so much better.
I’m dedicating this to any girl or woman who has been bullied, made fun of, been through depression, or has low self esteem! If you have any questions or comments just leave them down below. 😊